Christmas Day

Merry Christmas everyone! Yay! The day is finally here. Wow i have eaten so much today i am seriously full!!!!

We have had a really nice day, with family over - from both sides, and had a nice christmas lunch - turkey and ham. Mmmmm. Jonty did the cooking, what a good boy. Chris got very spoilt from santa and us and nanny and paps. Was very impressed by the drill santa bought him and the cars he got.

Rung Eden at Bobs, her granddads, where she is staying and she sounded happy. Feels sad she is so far away.

Dad rung home today, Nan has been told about granddads passing and appears to be coping well. The funeral is set for the 7th January. Sad.

Well we are just blobbing out right now, back on the diet tomorrow.

Christmas Eve

Sad news - Granddad fry has Died. Aged 93. So sad. Mum and Dad are here, so we have moped around all afternoon. Dad is really upset, not that it wasnt unexpected, but sad to lose a parent. I havent seen him for eight years, since i went over when pregnant with Eden. I feel sad I didnt see him again, I sort of knew it would be the last time when i was there, i remember waving out the back of the car as we drove away and him standing on the road waving. Sad :( .

So its been a yucky end of year. It will feel good when 2008 rolls around. A fresh start. I take heart that baby and granddad will be together, walking hand in hand towards the light. Romantic perhaps, but comforting. Me and Mum wrote out wishing tree messages today, before granddads passing, for Nana and Alex, made us both cry. I couldnt even write all that i wanted to write, didnt want the ladies there to see me a mess!!!!!

So Christmas day will begin with a cloud of saddness decending on it. Im hoping the fact that we are together and have Chris here to distract us will lift that cloud somewhat. I wish he had have held out till after christmas.......nevermind.

Well we are otherwise set for christmas day, jonty has done all the prep. Good man that he is. Me and him attempted to make a cake for chrissy, hmm seems cake decorating is quite an art. Ill post a pic from a distance so it doesnt look too bad. Im sure chris will eat it anyway.

Well i would like to post a pic of granddad, but dont have one on the computer, will ask mum to send me one. It still doesnt feel real he is gone. I wish i could have known him better, though i still feel close to him in a certain way, he was so lovely. RIP granddad, and help little alex find his/her way. We all loved you so much.

Ill post a pic of Dad and Chris today. Until i get one of grandad.

Missing my girl

Well Eden has spent the last week with her nanny and pappy and is off to see her dad. I feel a bit sad about this, i know how very safe she is with my mum and dad, however its good to have her see her dad.

Mum and Dad put on a little party for her and my brother Marty who will be 34 on Christmas Day. The pic above was taken of the two, I think theyve had nicer weather than us up here. Nanny is very sad to see her grandie go too, they have had fun together this week.

Mum and Dad are due up tomorrow night and spending christmas here. Cant wait. In laws are coming too, with great nanny joan. It will be like old times having an oldie for christmas, been a few years since Nan died. Be nice to all share a meal, having ham and turkey, have them sitting in fridge - ham waiting to be glazed and turkey defrosting slowly. Cant believe its only a few days till christmas. Its gone so quick.

We have had a productive day here, jonty tiedied up the garden and mowed the lawns and i cleaned the car. Will do housework tomorrow morning, to make sure its all nice for the oldies.

Diets going okay, i am really really craving chocolate at the moment. Though i have christmas day and christophers birthday to look forward to. Mmmmm chocolate.....

Our vegie patch. Jontys pride and joy. We have silverbeet at the back, fancy lettuce mix at the front, and carrots under the wires. Also theres spring onion somewhere in there. Were also growing tomatoes in buckets. Im so thankful to have the garden, it is so good to just whip out and make a salad. Carrots and tomatoes are yet to come thru, but wont be long.

Well today has been busy, we decided to spring clean the kitchen, looks good, and feels good too. Also bought the last of the christmas groceries, wow the shops are so full now, im glad we have done the kids christmas shopping.

Toiltet training chris is going to be slow work, im wondering if we are starting too early. Though today he did sit on the potty, which is progress.

The lovely Michelle dropped in today with a lovely pressie, what a nice suprise, it was a laser pic of an angel holding a baby, to remember our angel baby, such a nice thought. I love it, have put it on the mantle piece. Its so nice that people care. Its hard to grieve at christmas. It seems a lonely time to feel a loss... Still we are lucky to that we will have Mum and Dad and inlaws over on christmas, so wont be alone.

Went to visit a friend this morning with Christopher, Jonty had a nice rest at home in peace, played a bit (or more ) of playstation. We stayed for lunch which was very nice and came home to a nice cruisy arvo. Took the old dog for a walk to the park, and Chris got a couple of his fav banana lollies from the dairy - not the best, but hey its christmas. The puppy is driving me up the wall at the moment, i am over the pee on the carpet. And the poo too. We are having him outside more now, which is a relief. He is a neat pup, a real character, it just seems like we have had puppies for so long. We had his brother for a year, then he got run over :(, then it was Jas who we had to rehome and now Napoleon, so its been two years of having puppies. It will be good when he is toilet trained.

Well it seems christmas is creeping up. I have to say i feel a little empty lately. Eden is still at her nanny and pappys, and having a great time, but i miss her. I miss the noise and the mess. I miss the cute things she says. And Chris is missing her like crazy. We drove past the school yesterday and he said "Ee-ee", his name for her. Poor thing, is missing his wee mate. Chris' measel like rash has finally gone and he is sleeping SOOOO much better.

As for my health, things seem to be slowing down, the bleeding started again this morning, but has slowed through the day. I have to wait two weeks for a scan, which seems forever, im glad i am not in any pain at the moment. I am feeling sad, but not hopeless. I have had great support through TNN, it has helped to listen to other's experiences.

Welcome.....

To the beefums blog. This is us above at DH kids christmas party. I decided to make this to celebrate our kiddies, and document our day to day life. So here goes!

Well these last few weeks have been a bit sad as we have lost our third child to miscarriage. :(. It has really hit us hard as we wanted this baby so bad. We had tried for quite a while, and were excited when it finally happened! But sadly it was not meant to be.

Anyway life goes on, and we are looking forward to christmas. Only a week to go, wow where did this year go?

Eden has really blossomed this year, and will miss her lovely teacher. She has done gymnastics and pony club this year, and will be doing more riding next year and maybe some basketball. She has grown so tall. Her reports this year have been good, and her progress at school has been fantastic. She is a joy to parent and i will miss her over the christmas holidays as she is with her dad. :(

Christopher has gone from a baby to a little boy this year. He learnt to walk in January and there has been no stopping him since. Over the last few months he has started talking. He has lots of words now, not quite sentences, but heaps of words. Its so much easier when he can tell us what he wants. I have decided we will start potty training, just bit by bit over the summer. Chris isnt so keen on his undies, wants to wear them over a nappy. Doesnt quite work.

Well looks like we will be having a christmas at home, we were planning to go away, but have decided to stay close to the hospital since this is a complicated miscarriage. I feel safer that way.